A journey through life...

A girl (Has finally turned into a Woman)

2007-10-20T03:41:00.001-04:00

“I like your attitude”, “ I find you very sparkling”, “Do you ever get bogged down?”, “I never see you get tensed in a stressful situation”, “I’m amazed at how you handle situations”, “I always see you smile”, “I like your optimism”, “You are very smart and have a great personality”……………These are the words that I get to hear very often at my clients location.
I hear these words, I don’t believe that this is me they are referring to, shake my head a little bit and listen again. Yes they were looking at me while uttering those words………it is me they are talking to.

Someone who used to lack confidence, someone who always thought the world was against her, who always thought something terrible would happen even before the task was given to her, someone who used to get tensed at every single instance, who used cry at every single occasion, take all the bad comments and ignore the good ones, someone who was negative towards life.
Friends who know me well would agree. This was me then. But now I’m not afraid to take up any task given to me, I have started tackling problems one day at a time with a smile. I have started giving every task I take up my hundred percent thinking that the other good things would follow, I do not give up till I resolve the issue, I manage to juggle with my work and home pretty well. The future looks a lot clearer on what I want to be. How I would get there would soon become evident.

I’m 27 and I think it’s now that a girl has finally turned into a woman knowing that her dreams could be turned into a reality! Too late for this transition to happen but it finally did!!!

There are only few names that come to my mind who have helped me be the person I’m (apart from my family of course) and I would never forget them. Thank you for showing me that this world is beautiful. To you my friends I will always return……………..

Our Hearts

2007-04-01T01:36:00.000-04:00

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same..........

One of those days...

2007-03-30T02:30:00.000-04:00

When you hate yourself.

When your self esteem is running all time low.

When you want the day to end as soon as it begins.

When you just want to cry out loud.

When the sky turns grey.

When things start going wrong as soon as the day begins.

When your past comes back to haunt you.

When you begin to miss everythin you have lost.

When the words which had hurt you the most comes back to get you and you wonder "Did they really mean it?"

When you think of all the people who were once a very close part of your life and are now no longer associated with it.

When you want to pick that one person up from your dreams and not let go.

Its one of those days that I want to end soon....

I want to see a brighter tomorrow.

I know that these days will come back to haunt me and it will stop only when I'm by your side....I can't wait to be with you, my sunshine....

Very Close

2007-03-28T13:38:00.000-04:00

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Without You...

2007-03-28T12:44:00.000-04:00

Oh my love, what's the point in living without you
Without you the nights are tasteless oh darling
Dry and parched they are
Trying to pass them, but they dont

Don't go, because of the job
Don't go, the other wife calls
If the rain comes, it would ask
Don't go
Dry and tasteless these nights are
Trying to pass time, but it doesn't
Now without you my darling
Even time doesn't pass

Without you, the moon's golden is impure
The yellow dust flying is false
Without you, gold is brass
With you, the keekar(wild) plant becomes sacred peepal
Come, these nights don't pass at all
Without you the nights are tasteless oh darling

Translation of the song Tere Bina, Music by Rehman, Movie Guru and Lyrics by Gulzar.

What can I say about this song.....beautiful, divine, breathtaking..... Everytime I listen to the music and these words, it puts me into a different world all together.

Salutations to Rehman and Gulzar!

A Toast to life…..

2007-03-03T11:01:00.000-05:00

Its been quite a while since I wrote a blog. The reasons for this are many, the most important being the new phase that my life has entered earlier this year.

This year has been great for me. I had a fabulous wedding, an amazing person whom I can call my husband, a direction telling me where my life is heading, an assurance of a great future, blessings of all the ones I love…everything I had asked for, everything I ever wanted…..But none of these came easy to me. I had my own share of sorrows, heart breaks, guilt trips, uncertainty that was killing, arguments, sleepless nights, miseries………

But as they say, every cloud has a silver lining; I see my silver lining now. I can’t thank god enough for helping me make my decisions which seems so right. I always believed that marriage is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner. I thank god for helping me choose my partner, my soul mate and with this dance I mark the beginning of a new life as I color the world with my dreams.
Nothing is as it did seem. The darkness of my solitude is done as I now see the light, a rising sun…..

Today as I sit in the morning light, I raise a toast…..to you, to life, to our fabulous future together.

My "Most Played" playlist

2006-11-14T22:36:00.000-05:00

Music I have been listening to (much too often and topping my 'most played' list!!!)

Nickelback- Far Away
City and Colour- Comin' Home
Patrick Swayze- She's like the wind
Fuel- Million Miles
Cassie- Me and u
Dido- White Flag
John Lennon- Woman
Joe Cocker- You Are so Beautiful
John Denver- Leaving on a jetplane

What a weekend!!!

2006-10-02T09:37:00.000-04:00

Saturday- Cleared the road test, Got my driving licence and then a great lunch, a temple visit, a great dinner at a fabulous restuarant, a good night sleep.

Sunday- Woke up late, Went to Starbucks, sipped onto hot Chai Latte, sat at the window side watching the rain. Spent about 2 hrs there and came home along with my friends. Watched a movie together- "How to lose a guy in 10 days". Cute movie. Enjoyed it. Cooked lunch for friends, had a good meal. Lazed around till 6. Friends left and I logged onto the net. Had my usual webcam, telephone and chat sessions. Had a fabulous dinner and went to bed early..............

Boy what a weekend!!!!!!!!

Being Tagged!!!

2006-09-13T21:48:00.000-04:00

I am thinking about......
whether I should really be continuing this madness.

I said......
so little when I should have said more.

I want to......
reach for the stars. I may not get one, but I'm sure I won't come back with handful of mud either!!!

I wish......
I had the courage to make my dreams a reality

I hear......
a cry of a bleeding heart and the laughter of a joyous soul at the same time

I wonder......
what it feels like to fly like a bird...

I regret......
not being there for my friend when he needed me the most.

I am......
very emotional and sensitive.

I dance......
like nobody is watching

I sing......
almost all day!!!.

I cry......
for no reason

I am not always......
this moody. Trust me....

I make with my hands......
what my dear ones love to eat!!

I write......
only when I'm sad

I confuse......
almost everybody around me..

I need......
to be pampered all the time...

And finally......
I'm getting married!! Yippie!!!

Thank you Mitu and Swatz for this madness...

People I want to put through the same madness are

Harsha
Mayuresh

My Best Friend.....Thank you

2006-09-07T22:27:00.000-04:00

I lost my best friend and now I'm cold. But to you my friend I leave the door open so that you can find me when you need a shoulder to cry on.I can't forget my friend that whenever I was down, I called on you. Can't forget the helping hand you lent in my time of need. Can't forget the right things you said to keep me moving on, to keep me going strong. Can't forget you my friend because you healed my broken wings and made me fly again.You my friend have been a rock I could stand on, a bridge over any kind of water, a shelter in the storm. To you my friend I will always pray.I thank you for who you been to me. I thank you for all you done to me.
There ain't nobody like you. God bless you my friend. I miss you.

Marriage

2006-09-07T21:05:00.000-04:00

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same
music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Kahlil Gibran

A Mother's cry

2006-08-21T23:20:00.000-04:00

How does a mother feel when she finds out that the baby she was carrying for 37 week does not survive to see the world outside her womb.
What emotions does a mother go through when she touches her still born baby?
What must be a mother going through when she finds out that her baby had died inside her? The very thought makes me shudder, but I can't imagine you living through it.
May god give you strength to live through this tragedy. I will hope and pray that you get to feel a life inside you again. I hope that you would get to listen to your baby's first cry. I hope you will be called a mother..... again.

A new beginning.........a new start

2006-08-21T22:27:00.000-04:00

In all ways...................
Someone once said "Never fear shadows.....they simply mean there is light shining somewhere nearby".
So long I feared the shadows.......now I see the light.