One of those days...

When you hate yourself.

When your self esteem is running all time low.

When you want the day to end as soon as it begins.

When you just want to cry out loud.

When the sky turns grey.

When things start going wrong as soon as the day begins.

When your past comes back to haunt you.

When you begin to miss everythin you have lost.

When the words which had hurt you the most comes back to get you and you wonder "Did they really mean it?"

When you think of all the people who were once a very close part of your life and are now no longer associated with it.

When you want to pick that one person up from your dreams and not let go.

Its one of those days that I want to end soon....

I want to see a brighter tomorrow.

I know that these days will come back to haunt me and it will stop only when I'm by your side....I can't wait to be with you, my sunshine....

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Without You...

Oh my love, what's the point in living without you
Without you the nights are tasteless oh darling
Dry and parched they are
Trying to pass them, but they dont

Don't go, because of the job
Don't go, the other wife calls
If the rain comes, it would ask
Don't go
Dry and tasteless these nights are
Trying to pass time, but it doesn't
Now without you my darling
Even time doesn't pass

Without you, the moon's golden is impure
The yellow dust flying is false
Without you, gold is brass
With you, the keekar(wild) plant becomes sacred peepal
Come, these nights don't pass at all
Without you the nights are tasteless oh darling

Translation of the song Tere Bina, Music by Rehman, Movie Guru and Lyrics by Gulzar.

What can I say about this song.....beautiful, divine, breathtaking..... Everytime I listen to the music and these words, it puts me into a different world all together.

Salutations to Rehman and Gulzar!

A Toast to life…..

Its been quite a while since I wrote a blog. The reasons for this are many, the most important being the new phase that my life has entered earlier this year.

This year has been great for me. I had a fabulous wedding, an amazing person whom I can call my husband, a direction telling me where my life is heading, an assurance of a great future, blessings of all the ones I love…everything I had asked for, everything I ever wanted…..But none of these came easy to me. I had my own share of sorrows, heart breaks, guilt trips, uncertainty that was killing, arguments, sleepless nights, miseries………

But as they say, every cloud has a silver lining; I see my silver lining now. I can’t thank god enough for helping me make my decisions which seems so right. I always believed that marriage is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner. I thank god for helping me choose my partner, my soul mate and with this dance I mark the beginning of a new life as I color the world with my dreams.
Nothing is as it did seem. The darkness of my solitude is done as I now see the light, a rising sun…..

Today as I sit in the morning light, I raise a toast…..to you, to life, to our fabulous future together.